September 26, 2008
Just a Couple Days Left....
Yep! Just a few more days till I do it... I'm aiming for between Sunday and Tuesday! I'm so excited I can barely contain it! It's taken me around three and half months to finally become ready to lose all my hair. Really... I'm feeling like I can't wait any longer. And that's exactly how I should feel about it! So I'm all happy.... I'm a little nervous, too. I'm not sure I fully understand how I'm going to be treated during this time. I'm also pretty curious to how many people won't care. But either way, I'm still going to do it! Also, those of you who commented, thanks! Please continue to input! I really enjoy it! Oh and those who want to come with me for the shaving, or who want to see me right after, just throw me a text and we'll work something out. I'll also be posting pictures on my myspace and couple on here. Be prepared! Anyway, I'm a little surprised on how much support I've had about this. I was expecting a lot more people to try to talk me out of it. I guess people really do understand that this is something I've got to do. We'll see how much opposition I get after the deed is done. I'm really just so excited to see how it goes! You'll see another post from me soon, probably right after I go to get it shaved. Yay! Thanks again guys, stay tuned! *wink*
September 25, 2008
Before Shaving My Head
~I consider the consequences. I've thought about it deeply. I know that people will judge me at first glance. I will be considered a bad influence, unlady-like, a dyke, a bad-ass, and who knows what else. I think that's part of the challenge; getting over what people think of me. I want to be able to look in the mirror and see me, not my image. And that's a good part of what this is about. Finding me. I'm going to go ahead and list my twenty reasons... but keep in mind that there are so many more reasons beyond this list.
1. To rid myself of vanity
2. To get rid of my self-consciousness
3. To be more myself, to find myself
4. To stop hiding
5. To see who really cares
6. To see who'll take a chance on me
7. To find someone who thinks I'm truly beautiful
8. To see myself as beautiful
9. To symbolize rebirth
10. Growing it back out means cute haircuts
11. Convenience of short hair
12. Save time in mornings when getting ready
13. I'm bored
14. As an experimental art project, self-expression
15. Conversation starter
16. To free myself of oppression
17. To prove I don't need hair to be feminine
18. To ban fear of society's view of me
19. To revive faith in my own capabilities
20. Because I want to
~So maybe some of the reasons are stupid or childish... but they're still reasons. And all I need are more reasons. I've waited three and a half months already. I've been preparing for the loss of my most valued possession. I love my hair. And that's what this is about. I can manipulate it, I can make it bend to my will... and I need to know what it feels like to bare myself. I want to show myself to the world. It's like being naked. There is nothing to hide, it's just me. I want to be comfortable with that. It's normally something that I only show to select few, but now.... You'll all see me. And I want to know what you think. Hopefully people will look past my hair, look past my appearance and still give me a shot. I want to see if anyone will be surprised by what they find. Will I still be beautiful to you? Will I still be attractive? I want to find out. It's a challenge for me. I want to see if I can hold myself in a way that makes it so people will still come to me, but not for my looks. I want to find people who don't care about appearance, who will like me for me.
~Another thing.... When I put myself out there, when I bare myself to the world..... will any of you stand up and tell me they're glad. They're glad they know me, or they want to know me.... want to love me. I want to show the world.... just to see who's willing to go all the way. Just to see if someone will be brave enough to bare themselves right back. In a way, I'm hoping for a revolution. I'm hoping that people will accept themselves and be honest with the world. I'm hoping that we can stop judging and start living.
~So that brings me to the idea of trying to stop me. I don't care what any of you think, what any of you have to say about it... I'm going to do it. This is my life, my choice, and it's something I want to do. Any of you who are against it, tell me, you have a right to your opinion. But don't you dare try to stop me, slow me down, or deter me. This is my battle, my right, and it's something that will happen. I'm going to shave my head, tribal mark and everything, at the end of September.
~Now to those of you who are excited for me: Thank you for your support. It's very much appreciated. But let's get this straight.... I'm no one's hero. I'm not doing the world a great deed or anything of the sort. It's actually quite a selfish thing to do, since I'm only doing it for myself and that my mind is made up. I've been told I'm brave for this, that none of you could ever have the guts to do the same... or anything close. I'm not brave, just determined to fix something within myself. This is just my way of doing it. And you're all capable. You could do something just as hard for you to do, you could show a change in yourself. It's all just up to if you want to. Because if you wanted to, you could do the same. You could be just as "brave." It's all just a matter of choice.
~In conclusion! This is my challenge, my choice, my hardship, my path, and my resolution. It took a long time to prepare for this, and finally I'm ready. The end of September, I will lose all my valuable hair. I will lose my face value and beauty. I will learn to become a woman without it. I will learn how to be a strong, and ever changing person. I will bare myself to the world. I will overcome it. Are you as ready to accept me as I am? Ask yourself now... Do you want to make a similar choice in the betterment of yourself? If yes, then just do it.
(NOTE: So this is the essay like thing I wrote a while ago when I first started telling people that I'm shaving my head. It has been posted elsewhere and some of you may have seen it already. It covers a lot of the reasoning behind my decision. Now, if you've already commented on this where it was posted earlier, then thank you. You don't need to post again but, like I said, the opinions really help. So any comments are greatly appreciated. Also, let's make something clear. I know I've been very public about my decision and spread it around a lot and talk about it a lot. That's not because I want attention, it's because I'm very excited and I really want some feedback info from people. I crave information, so that's part of this, too. Thanks again for reading! I hope you continue to follow my progress.)
1. To rid myself of vanity
2. To get rid of my self-consciousness
3. To be more myself, to find myself
4. To stop hiding
5. To see who really cares
6. To see who'll take a chance on me
7. To find someone who thinks I'm truly beautiful
8. To see myself as beautiful
9. To symbolize rebirth
10. Growing it back out means cute haircuts
11. Convenience of short hair
12. Save time in mornings when getting ready
13. I'm bored
14. As an experimental art project, self-expression
15. Conversation starter
16. To free myself of oppression
17. To prove I don't need hair to be feminine
18. To ban fear of society's view of me
19. To revive faith in my own capabilities
20. Because I want to
~So maybe some of the reasons are stupid or childish... but they're still reasons. And all I need are more reasons. I've waited three and a half months already. I've been preparing for the loss of my most valued possession. I love my hair. And that's what this is about. I can manipulate it, I can make it bend to my will... and I need to know what it feels like to bare myself. I want to show myself to the world. It's like being naked. There is nothing to hide, it's just me. I want to be comfortable with that. It's normally something that I only show to select few, but now.... You'll all see me. And I want to know what you think. Hopefully people will look past my hair, look past my appearance and still give me a shot. I want to see if anyone will be surprised by what they find. Will I still be beautiful to you? Will I still be attractive? I want to find out. It's a challenge for me. I want to see if I can hold myself in a way that makes it so people will still come to me, but not for my looks. I want to find people who don't care about appearance, who will like me for me.
~Another thing.... When I put myself out there, when I bare myself to the world..... will any of you stand up and tell me they're glad. They're glad they know me, or they want to know me.... want to love me. I want to show the world.... just to see who's willing to go all the way. Just to see if someone will be brave enough to bare themselves right back. In a way, I'm hoping for a revolution. I'm hoping that people will accept themselves and be honest with the world. I'm hoping that we can stop judging and start living.
~So that brings me to the idea of trying to stop me. I don't care what any of you think, what any of you have to say about it... I'm going to do it. This is my life, my choice, and it's something I want to do. Any of you who are against it, tell me, you have a right to your opinion. But don't you dare try to stop me, slow me down, or deter me. This is my battle, my right, and it's something that will happen. I'm going to shave my head, tribal mark and everything, at the end of September.
~Now to those of you who are excited for me: Thank you for your support. It's very much appreciated. But let's get this straight.... I'm no one's hero. I'm not doing the world a great deed or anything of the sort. It's actually quite a selfish thing to do, since I'm only doing it for myself and that my mind is made up. I've been told I'm brave for this, that none of you could ever have the guts to do the same... or anything close. I'm not brave, just determined to fix something within myself. This is just my way of doing it. And you're all capable. You could do something just as hard for you to do, you could show a change in yourself. It's all just up to if you want to. Because if you wanted to, you could do the same. You could be just as "brave." It's all just a matter of choice.
~In conclusion! This is my challenge, my choice, my hardship, my path, and my resolution. It took a long time to prepare for this, and finally I'm ready. The end of September, I will lose all my valuable hair. I will lose my face value and beauty. I will learn to become a woman without it. I will learn how to be a strong, and ever changing person. I will bare myself to the world. I will overcome it. Are you as ready to accept me as I am? Ask yourself now... Do you want to make a similar choice in the betterment of yourself? If yes, then just do it.
(NOTE: So this is the essay like thing I wrote a while ago when I first started telling people that I'm shaving my head. It has been posted elsewhere and some of you may have seen it already. It covers a lot of the reasoning behind my decision. Now, if you've already commented on this where it was posted earlier, then thank you. You don't need to post again but, like I said, the opinions really help. So any comments are greatly appreciated. Also, let's make something clear. I know I've been very public about my decision and spread it around a lot and talk about it a lot. That's not because I want attention, it's because I'm very excited and I really want some feedback info from people. I crave information, so that's part of this, too. Thanks again for reading! I hope you continue to follow my progress.)
Introduction!
Hi everybody! Thanks for finding my blog, or bothering to read it.... It means a lot! So! This is what's going on! I'm a girl who lives in a place and is about to shave off all her hair. Now no confusion on this, I'm not going bald, just to a buzz cut. But really that's very short. I normally have shoulder-length hair. It's brown and wavy and I like it quite a bit. As for reasons behind this action, I'll write them in a different blog. The point is! I'm shaving my head. I don't have cancer. I'm not a lesbian. I'm not a tom boy, I'm actually pretty feminine. But I'm doing it anyway. Again, I'll explain why later. But this is how it's gonna go. I'm going to try very hard to give you a weekly update on how I'm treated being a girl without hair, and how I'm feeling throughout the experience. Feel free to write any sort of opinion you have on any of it. I'm actually hoping some of you will have input. I really want this to be a whole learning adventure, and your opinions are a part of that. No worries about offending me, I'd rather hear what you truly are thinking. OH, and to those of you who know me personally, please don't mention my real name. I like to stay hidden to an extent. Well! That's about all. Yes, in a way this is an experiment. But its also for my soul! So yeah.... reasons in next post! Have a nice day! *smile*
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