Nearly a Week Now

It's really not that different. At least the few first days weren't too hard. Now though... it's kinda hitting me. First of all I'm treated different. Maybe not significantly but people do look at me funny now and then. Some people have been careful what they're saying around me, like not to offend me or something. I don't get hit on by annoying men anymore! YAY! Uh.. what else.... Really I feel different. My systems of defense that usually help me feel ok about things have broken down. I miss my hair. The lack of control puts me in a very vunerable state. But it's forcing me to address some issues I wouldn't before, like how truly vain I was. I value my appearance way too much. Acknowledging this is really helping. I don't look at the mirror as much. After I'm ready for the day, I try not to even glance at a mirror for the rest of the day. I don't even need to. There's nothing to fix, lol, I don't have enough hair. People have said I don't look too bad with it. I don't think that matters. It's not about making myself look bad so that I have to deal with it, it's about stripping away all the superficial things I used to worry about. Most of these are associated with my hair. Already, I feel a little more like myself. A little more open in the face of the crowd. As for the challenge to still be taken as a lady.... It's hard. Really hard. Mornings are kinda chaotic because of it. My pairings of clothes and jewelry have to be right on, or else I don't look feminine. Yes it's kind of a pain, but also I sorta enjoy it. A challenge starting each morning jump starts my brain functions. It's been fun. Showers and all that go so fast now. It saves me time. That's just about it on everything. I'll keep posting so stay tuned! *smile* Please comment, and thank you for commenting if you have at all. Bye!