So.... I'm very proud of myself for all this. My hair has actually grown a few centimeters so I'm well on my way to the next haircut. It will be longer and more stylized than this one. It's very exciting for me!
As for the situation.... I've gotten used to the stares. They don't bother me. I just look like an artsy nut to strangers. It doesn't bug me. I basically am lol. I feel a lot more in tune with myself. I had my first real break-down (minus hair) this week. It was kinda scary. I had no where to direct control, because I couldn't just mess up my hair or fix it to calm me down. It was really scary. I realized a lot though. I was relying on my hair for WAY too many things in my life. I was relying on it for confidence, which I'm now building from my soul. I was relying on it for ego-boost, such as attention from boys, now I'm forced to actually try. I'm becoming more humble, but still have a long ways to go. I was relying on it to keep me calm and to hide my face. I'm now forced to find new ways to calm myself and now I must face my own face. I'm still kinda having issues with some things.... Working hard to think freely though.
Any thoughts or comments are greatly appreciated. I promise I'll get pictures up soon.
Well, here I am. To report all the things that happen to me while I shave off my hair and as it grows back. I'm a girl ready to see how this all turns out. We'll see how strange or different it really gets.
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